Unbearable Agony: A Personal Fight With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a gloomy Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. Then came rapid jolts, similar to electric shocks. As the school day came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a GP finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an evil entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical records propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such progress, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four operations before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent episodes are managed with abortive treatment only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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Russell Morales
Russell Morales

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